The beginning of spring is birthday season in my house. From mid-February to the end of March we have six family birthdays to celebrate, three of those being my sons’ birthdays just two weeks apart from each other.
In the past this has been the perfect excuse to make and eat large quantities of cake. I do love cake. This year I decided that cupcakes were the best way to consume cake in a controlled way, so I could count up the calories for each cake and allow for ONE in my daily calorie allowance. For the first time ever in my house there were cakes left over a whole week after they were made. It felt like a breakthrough – I got a great feeling of self-worth for having self -control, when faced with cake.
I am now starting to feel the benefits of being active and eating a healthy diet. My friends, family and even mums at school have started to notice my weight loss, and the little bounce in my step. It’s a great feeling to have my big effort acknowledged, although I still feel like I have so far yet to go. At the beginning of March I bought a dress for my step-brother’s wedding. When it arrived, it fitted so well and I was excited about wearing it. This was the first time I’ve felt positive about clothing in such a long time. The wedding was in the North East at the end of March, so we planned to make a whole weekend of it. We stayed with different family each night. It was so good to spend time with them, and have a weekend off from calorie counting. The wedding was so much fun and the atmosphere was relaxed and happy. There were some great ideas that I will definitely take inspiration from for our wedding in November. I felt confident dancing – armed with plenty of Zumba moves, I danced for hours.
Getting back into the routine of keeping my food diary was difficult when I returned from our weekend away. I was tired from travelling and it was also the Easter holidays. I missed Zumba for a whole week, although I was still staying active running about after the boys and training with Simply Fit. Lee and I shared a chocolate bunny as an Easter treat. I really enjoyed it but didn’t like sharing much! The days of eating to excess are now behind me, and if I do overindulge a little, I don’t beat myself up about it. I just get straight back to being good. Looking at pictures of pretty ladies in wedding dresses helps me stay focused.
It’s only eight months now until the wedding. It hadn’t felt real until I finally sent out Save the Date cards to my family and friends. Getting excited replies from family made me realise just how important it is to be making this commitment to each other. The hours spent looking at all things weddings on Pinterest have helped me get an idea of how I want the wedding to be. Lee has spent considerably less time looking on Pinterest (!) but has had some great ideas along the way.
I haven’t managed to go wedding dress shopping as I’d hoped, although that’s only down to me being ‘less than eager’ to arrange it with my Mum and friends. I have had some anxiety about the dress shopping experience. I generally don’t try clothes on in shops. In the past it’s not been an enjoyable experience due to how I felt about my own body. Picking clothes up that looked nice, then when I tried them on they wouldn’t fit or just generally looked terrible. There’s also that embarrassment of always having to look towards the back of the rail for my size hoping that they have it in XXL. Even though I’ve lost just over 2 stone now and I’m in a comfortable size 16, my mind set hasn’t caught up with me yet. Despite this, I’ve finally booked a dress shopping day with my mum for May, when hopefully I’ll be able to dismiss that anxiety and really enjoy the experience.
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